HazyDaze

KL and me bought baking stuff and wanted to bake last night at my place - we wanted to make chocolate chip cookies. *sigh…everything was prepared and then when I turned the oven to pre-heat, it tripped the whole electricity in my place. We tried numerous times, including switching off the air conditioning and changing the fuse….nothing seemed to work. I was super fustrated man.
It was damn hot today, we took a bus to KL’s place to use his oven. Haha….also tripped the whole damn place. With the butter melting in the heat, the eggs and flour in our backpack, we gave up and went to meet GL, BS and NL in church for mass.
Imagine, it’s the weekend and you wanna go out but the freaking weather dampens the spirit. I miss ‘Sally-Jane’ (KL’s old Honda Concerto). Taking public transport in this freaking weather is damn fustrating!!!! Sorry, I think I’m spoilt.

*Thinking if I should go for yoga tomorrow morning - menses lah….can’t do a lot of poses. Hmmm…..

MC today. Super-duper bad cramps last night that I had to wake up to take my pain killers. Been having Menstrual Cramps since 14 years old. I’m addicted to pain-killers - ponstan (prescribed by Dr Gan). Alarm Clock ran in the morning, still cramping away. So I called in sick and took my pills again and back to bed. It was really nice coz I can skip work and snuggle with KL back in bed. Slept basically the whole of today and tempted KL to take naps with me - it’s somehow my fault now that he has migraine.

My parents are currently eating durian in the living room. My folks have some kind of a strange habit - they eat durian wearing plastic disposable gloves. *roll eyes* I don’t really like durian. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate it. I’m just not a crazy durian fan that’s all.

Today, I had the best lunch ever. KL came to meet me for lunch and we bought ‘Yakitori Lunch Box’ (my favourite) and brought it outside of Taka - somewhere between Taka and Wisma. Today’s weather was great. KL brought a thermo-flask from home with hot water and 2 packets of Japanese Green Tea. How great is that?? Yakitori with Japanese Rice and Green Tea. We sat in the Open Air, wasn’t even sunny, even had lots of greenery and wasn’t even crowded - in fact, there was like 2 other women smoking and on their mobile quite a distance away. And half-way thru, it started to drizzle a little. So we packed up everything and went under the shelter. Lots of people were staring - not at us, not even at our food, but at our thermo-flask. Hahaa….we look like the “80s Ribena Advertisement” kids.

Anyway, last night I couldn’t sleep so I had to talk to KL, but he was already getting drowsy. I felt really horrible coz KL is going back to Melbourne on the 18 July. I never had that countdown thingy before coz we always spent at least 2 to 3 months together before parting again. This term break is only 1 month. *sigh…Anyway, so I asked what is going to happen to us while KL was struggling to keep awake in bed. He told me that we’ll get married by the end of this year. I went like “Yah Right! Sure!” After 8 years, one tends to know that whatever he says when he is going to sleep, sleeping or just woke up is not ‘counted’. But I felt great hearing that and soon fell into slumber. During lunch, I “casually” asked if he remember what we talked about before we slept and surprisingly, he actually remembered. Wow!!! Damn amazing, man. He said that he had to submit his Australian PR application by next April becoz of some policy change and that it might affect him and that was the dateline. So he thought getting married by this year end would be easier for me to join him later in Aust. Seriously, I was a bit taken aback. Honestly, KL is the typical kind of man who will avoid all ways when I talk/plan our future. It may seemed like he doesn’t love me and don’t want to be with me, but I know the truth is - he really don’t know and he doesn’t want to make empty promises and keep my hopes high. *Geez, I hope he doesn’t read this blog*

I went back to office thinking over and over about our future in Aust. True, it was I who encouraged and even pushed him to find work in Aust and plan for our future there. But really, the truth is, I never expect him to go ahead and do it. He is not the kind that would actually bother. *sigh. I used to dream about living in another foreign land since I was young. In fact, when I was pre-teen, I visited my uncle in boring-old Perth and lived with him for about 3 months, I started to plan dream about actually living in Aust. But now that it’s seemed like a step closer to my dream, I get afraid. I love my current job. Yes, I’m one of the rare people left on this world that are really lucky to love what they are doing. I can’t just leave my work here in SweatyHot Singapore? I only started working!! My parents? Daddy how? I’m his only child, the apple of his eye, the worm in his stomach…..who is going to take care of Old Daddy? I can’t trust Mum to do the job!?!?!?
Daddy once planned when I was in Sec 3, to join my Uncle in Perth, he too was a quitter but somehow it didn’t work out. He even encourage KL to take up residency in Aust. Hmmm….maybe we can get daddy to move in with us in Aust? *Argh, now we got to find someway to leave mum behind in Singapore. Aiyah, then again, moving away means being alone and being alone means no family living with you except they come for holidays.

See? It ain’t that easy. It’s not about packing your bags and go. It’s about the people, things, sights, smells and memories that you leave behind too. But all is well, I think. Things will work out someway or another. If my great, great great grandfather haven’t dared to conquer the unknown of the foreign land, I wouldn’t be in this tiny island.

It’s my mum’s birthday today and dad wanted to go out for dinner. Somehow, he asked me to get BS to join us for dinner and then somehow, it included NL and GL….and then it somehow, we were ordering food for 7 people. We had like a Seafood dinner somewhere in Bedok. It was really fun. I think my parents enjoyed the company, well, I think they simply enjoyed the attention. You see, my dad tells really corny jokes and I am so sick of it, I simply refused to listen. And of coz, he tells and says really vulgar and sexy jokes. Basically, conversation with my dad can be as crude as possible. We had dinner last saturday night and one of the dishes were “mini monk jump over the wall” and it had like a small abalone in the soup. BS kept saying it’s “chee bye” or ‘limpets’ in the can and daddy kept encouraging more of such conversation. Yes, I agree, our dinner conversation ain’t very appropriate. Well, conversations with BS and GL has always gone into topics like sex, pap smear, sex buddies, bodily fluids, and etc. And it is usually while we’re having dinners. Today, dad decided to tell us about his diahorrea(never seemed to be able to spell this) experience the other day in the office just as we were tucking into out chilli crabs. *rolls eyes!

Anyway, being the only child, dad loves the company of children and I guess in a way, he was bringing 5 kids out for dinner and he really enjoyed it. We later adjourned to a nearby prata place for “Milo Dinosaur”, while my parents went home for an early night. Yup, we all had beer with our seafood and dad needed to sleep it off. Anyway, GL started to asked all sorts of questions about how much to buy a car, even though KL and me were the only one with class 3 license at the table. And then I don’t know what happened, the conversation turned out to wanting to dump GL’s parents to an old folks home so we can all move in to her place and then pooled our money together and co-own a car and etc. Err…we also wanted to get an Osim Massage Chair so we can chart out a timetable to utilize it as well as a swimming pool which we later decided on a Jaccuzzi Tub which can fit all 5 of us was more practical - which I think was Mission Impossible as BS and KL is over 100kg each and NL and me ain’t ‘Olive Oyl”. Oh, GL wants a pool room with a pool table. I want a Entertainment Room with a huge screen and great sound system so that we can download latest movies from Kazzaa or go JB with our common car and buy VCDs together and watch it in the room. Yup, we’ll save a lot of money on going to the movies. Oh…we also want a huge bath tub each in our rooms too and a few refrigerators.

*Sigh….if only…..

By the way, we are planning to go Night Safari on Friday night….just wondering how to get there now that KL’s car is scrap metal. Hmmm….

KL came back for holiday on wednesday and I have been busy eating and eating. Gosh….I don’t know how to explain myself in “the food diaries” To cut short - straight after picking KL from the airport we went straight to “Oasis”, for taiwan porridge. They serve the best “kong pak” and fresh cockles. Then on thursday, we woke up early to go for breakfast at Purvis Street Beef noodles, then we watched the 11.30am show are Prince - Shaw Towers. I highly recommend “Finding Nemo”. That’s the best pixar animation ever. Okay, the following is my ranking for animations:
1. Finding Nemo (Pixar & Disney)
2. Monster Inc (Pixar & Disney)
3. A Bugs Life (Pixar & Disney)
4. Toy’s Story (Pixar & Disney)
Hmm…..have I missed anything out? Anyway, after the movie, we went to find for our favourite Prawn Noodle which moved from opposite Concourse to KeyPoint Food Court and then it just recently moved back to the same spot. I was however disappointed as the standard had dropped. We took a bus to Ikea just to eat swedish meatballs. Hahaa…just to explain how much we ate, it was only 3pm+ when we had our swedish meatballs and we only started eating at 10am. Tell you, we were so dumb because we had like a chinese restaurant dinner at Spring Court along East Coast Road as it was KL’s grandmother’s birthday. No, we were not so dumb to finish the whole 10 course meal. But KL was dumb enough to drink 4 glasses of beer. He literally almost exploded.

Okay, I had my 3 seconds of fame on Friday. It was my graduation/convocation. It was really funny because I overhead someone saying that everyone looked like “characters from harry porter”. hahaa….seriously, you should see my London Lecturers and all the distingushed guest from England all wore that robe and “silly” hats, really they do resemble characters from harry porter. (Note: going to collect my book later). Oh, after that, we didn’t want to look like starving migrants so we escaped the maddening crowd and went to holland village, crystal jade for tim sum. Came home after that took a nap and went out for dinner. *sigh! We had dinner with my folks at ‘Joo Heng Restaurant’ along Joo Chiat Road. After that I joined my dad and his friends at a nearby pub and his friends all bought me and KL beer. Hahaa…it’s really cool coz it’s like an old man pub with karaoke and all and I know all his friends. They had been my dad friends since they were kids, well, you can say there were childhood friends. I always hear stories about them and they too, hear stories about me too. I can strongly say that I know them pretty well, it’s not like one of those people I see once in a while. I see them pretty often. Think the last time I saw them was like a month ago at my aunt’s birthday dinner. Yes, they all know my family well and likewise.
Well, that was all we had for Friday. Tomorrow was be another challenge. We’re having dinner at Paramount Hotel, Tung Lok Restaurant with my parents, and friends. It’s a buffet ala-carte. So KL and me are planning to eat light and go easy for lunch. Hope this works.

*Note: All the food suggested here are highly recommmended by myself. If you have any enquires, you may email me. Remember I love food, but I only eat THE BEST!

It was really embarrass. I usually not shy, really! I’m quite thick-skin. Everyone I know will surely vouch for it. Everyone gets a birthday cake on their birthday in the office. They got me a Chocolate Cake from one of those cake stalls at Taka, it was really delicious. I was so embarrassed when they started to sing me a birthday song. What made it worse was that AB(my big boss) asked how old I was, and RG (my direct boss) said “let me guess, 21?” Hahaa….RG was just joking, he knew how old I was, but AB looked so confused so I said “why? I don’t look 21?” He suddenly said “NO…..thought you were 18!”…..Wow…made my day, man. However, NS had to kill my short-lived happiness by saying “Yah….so immature hor? Childish!” Hahaa…

My colleagues always made fun of me…the weeks leading to my birthday, they said they wanted to cut cost and buy me a cheap Sara-Lee cake instead. Then last week, they decided to get the $2.99 Chocolate Rice Cake from Giant. *hmpf! - (*fold arms and look angry)

My highlight of the day was however receiving a bouquet of roses from KL. Hahaa….the whole situation was really hilarious. Because I was really busy in the morning, I missed my 10.30am appointment (aka ahem…let’s say visiting the bathroom). I therefore went for my postponed appointment at 2pm+. I came back, JN was grinning at me, initially I thought they are going to crack a joke about my appointment. JN handled over a bouquet of roses while RG walked out of his room. JN was full of questions…”who? who sent you these?” RG went like “wow…who is your secret admirer?”….there was lots of commotion in the office….everyone seemed to be more excited than me because they know KL not back yet. I saw the receipt and saw “love K”…I had to clarify with everyone that it’s indeed from KL. NS was very curious and asked “he back already?” No, KL is not back yet, however being a very internet savvy person who does a hell lot of internet shopping, I know him better.

Strange, KL had not got me flowers of any kind for a long long time….well….err….yes…actually, he’s quite sweet. The last bouquet was a 3 stalk of tulips which he bought out of convenience - he and his sister bought a huge bouquet of roses for their mother on mother’s day. Yes, I received flowers from him on Mother’s Day. *roll eyes. I remember our 1st Valentine’s Day, some kid on the street asked him to buy me a stalk of rose and “MR GOONDU-FART” asked me if I want or not. WAH LAU!!! haha….all is forgiven now, besides, we were really best friends than, well, for me at least. And the last 2 times I went to Melbourne to visit him, it’s really sweet and not to mention heartwarming to see your guy standing alone with a beautiful stalk of rose after 7hours flight, which was I always travel alone.

You know what? I really miss him terribly right now…oh well, since yesterday. I called him so bloody often yesterday that I looked like a stalker. It’s really difficult to be spending my 1st birthday without him. I’m truly grateful that BS, NL and GL made it really easy not to miss him that much.

I’m really excited tomorrow, do you know why? Coz my darling is coming home for holidays!!! YIPPEEE!!!!

Happy Birthday, Old Maid. =(

It’s really strange….every friday and saturday night I always refused to sleep early. Even if I’m sleepy, I’ll still try to stay up. Yawning and all, I’ll still stay up even thought I have nothing else to do. Guess, the real deal is that I don’t want to sleep and then wake up it’s another day gone and then soon the weekend will come to an end. And it’s monday again. *Sigh….

This week is worse, I’ll be 27 in 2 hours time. Damn!

Went on a drinking binge last night. Every friday it’s social club - lots of drinking and all. I usually don’t stay back and socialise….but last night was different. We went to social club elsewhere, where the drinks are dead cheap, as in about $1 for a can of tiger. hehee…so naturally, I took advantage of it.

In fact, our department of 12 people, only 5 of us went. It was great coz we can bitch about the rest that didn’t go. Hahaaa…. It was really great also because my boss and colleagues can see me for who I really am - may it be good or bad. We had like a major renovation this weekend and about 3pm on friday, everyone started to pack up and clear our desk, including moving the computers to the storeroom and keeping all the important documents. We were really efficient and was done by 4+ and RG took out beer for everyone. He however took out coke for me and another colleague who don’t drink at all. Everyone in the office said that I drink and RG didn’t think I could. The whole situation was really hilarious. I was really embarrassed to admit that yes, I am a beer girl than a high class wine drinker while RG was trying to come to terms that I COULD actually drink. You see, to him, I’m the goody good girl, while my colleague have seem me drink. Hahaa..

Anyway, throughout the whole night, he kept asking if I was alright and if I was drunk. Hehee…My colleagues and me were getting a bit annoyed.

I was a bit hesitant to go for such social event. I mean, I was never like that. I’m very outgoing and love to stay out late and meet new people (in fact, I was a wild thing then! hehee)…..but I guess, my confidence level dropped termendously after Psorisis and putting on weight and all. All in all, I’m really glad I went. It not only brought me closer to my colleagues and boss, I also managed to get to know the other department staff better.

I would definately go again.

Below is what I consumed during our social event last night. Was really proud of myself coz I didn’t puke or any of those horrible feeling. I also didn’t wake up with a hangover this afternoon. Oh… I also didn’t pay a single cent but had to pay for my cab fare home.

Drank from 5pm to about 11pm without dinner:
1 Heineken
1 white wine (1st glass is free!)
3 Stella Astois
1 CB Lager(korean beer) - Yucks!
some Ale - shared with colleague
1 Tiger
some cheese (hmm….the apricot cheese was really yummy!)
1 chicken wing (not nice..)
1 spring roll
some breadsticks with salami
and lots of nachos with delicious dip

Just got home. Ready drunk right now. Will tell you more tomorrow.

Sorry, no mood to write. PMS is here to stay for a while.

I really don’t know what is wrong with me today. I kept wanting to cry. Many times today, I caught myself with tears welling in my eyes. Happy, Sad, Touched, Surprised and Irritated too….all experience today with my eye filled with tears. No, not a single drop of tear escaped.

Happy/ Delighted - I managed get my own way today at work. Managed to handle a case exactly the way I wanted it to be handled and was telling DL about my success story when she asked about it today, I reacted with seawater in my eyes. I promptly walked away before she discovered I was a lunatic by pretending I had a running nose and dived for my kleenex on my desk. Wiped the tears at the corner of my eyes too.

Sad - During lunch at my desk, I realised how much I missed KL. He’s been away since Feb. Imagine eating my lunch box with my eyes all red and wiping my eyes with the kleenex I used to wipe my mouth.

Touched - On my way home in the bus, I was reading my book. I realised that everyone had their eyes fixed on the mobile TV. They had the renactment of the nurse who passed away on mother’s day because she contracted sars while caring for her patients. I was actually reading my book and only looked up for like less then a few minutes and was very touched by the healthcare workers.

Surprised - I came home and found dad at home so early. My dad actually cancelled his drinking sessions with his friends when he realised that I am not going to the gym and coming home for dinner. Took my towel and went to the bathroom and was getting really emotional. Not sure if I did shed a tear or two but because I had the shower over my head, I can’t tell.

Irritated - Mum is as annoying as usual. Asking all sorts of questions. Shut my room door and was going to read the papers when I got emotional again.

DAMN PMS.

For you readers who don’t know what it stands for….Pre-menstrual symptom, Present Menstural symptom and Post Menstrual symptom. Yes…24/7, 365 days a year.

I need some Hersheys chocolate right now to stablised my hormonal imbalance. (EXCUSES!!)

i know it’s not a competition…but sometimes I feel like everyone else gets to live the life they want….but not me. I always seeing people living the life I wish I did. Worse, when they do the things I thought of doing first…basically, they beat me to it. Life is so unfair. Okay, enough mobbing…Don’t worry, I’m good…I’m fine…no worries.

Quote for the day:
“…it’s my life…i should be selfish…”

think it’s PMS season again…hahaa.

Joints, Muscles, Abs (imaginary), Calves all aching….Aaaahh…..

Recently joined the Food Diary.

I hope it’ll help me with budgeting my meals better and not to mention also help me to be control my food intake too.

I wrote a email to Q (KL’s sis) today.

Hi Q,
It’s been a long time since I spoke to you. Funny how we used to be pretty
close and now we barely have much to say to each other. I dreamt of you last
night(must be all that alcohol)….nothing creepy…just your bro, you and
me going for late night movies and then supper. Yeah, I kind of miss you.
Waking up after that evoked such strong emotion. It was only yesterday when I told my
colleagues about you. We had some kind of function with lots of big shots
last night and I was asked if I ever wanted
any siblings. I told them I had my boyfriend’s sister, without any of those
manatory sibling rivalry and that’s good enough for me. I always wished I had
an elder sister so that I can tell her all kind of things. Naturally, when I
begun living with your family, I tried to be your sister. Maybe you didn’t
need one. I’m not sure. But I remember telling Aunty Anna after you first
left for London that my greatest regret is that we never really bonded.
Well, such things can’t be forced. We both lead hectic, busy lifestyle….I
was busy with my own stuff and your bro’s…sorry. I remember after you
left, I wrote you an email that you can always come to me whenever you need
a listening ear or just needed someone to be there. That offer still stands.

HL

*Note: “blah” is to keep the confidentiality of my work, people and stuff. But now everyone knows how old I am. So much for confidentiality =(

Sometimes all I wish for is just to be with you and nothing else mattters….
Then there are times I just want more.
I feel right now is THAT time.

To be listened with:
Nothing else matters by Metallica

Pissed drunk right now….free flow of duty free alcohol…woo hoo… Good night

KL forward this link to me: http://www.zug.com/pranks/natural/

Reminded me of something. VC was talking about dog food and how chocolate is bad for dogs. I told her that I tried the chocolate and milk drops for dogs. I meant I really tried. Yes, I tried a number of dog food. No, I don’t think I’m mad. I just think that I would like to try what my dog is eating and whether it is really edible. I’ve tasted chocolate drops, milk drops (milk drop is nicer, sweeter), a few brands of canned dog food, chew bones and other snacks. Anyway, VC now look at me differently. She’s still recovering from her shock.

You are welcome to email me if you want my review on dog food, but only can comment on stuff I tried.

Just came out of the toilet, saw Mr Lizard again. Gave me a fright.

Had a horrible day at work today. The mood in the office on fridays are usually high. Unfortunately, I had a terrible call today from one of my client. She screamed and yell at me over the phone but because I was pretty sedated with KL’s migraine painkiller, I was unusually calm and not to mention, nice. I was speaking in a calm and sedated tone, while she was raving like a mad woman. It’s been a lousy week at work. My case load increased, was complaint on wednesday and got screamed at for no apparent reason today. *sigh.

Didn’t go to the gym as GL had a bad day too and went home to sleep it off. I decided to follow suit when I was sleeping in the bus on my way home with my mouth open - so un-glam! (haha, but I really can’t help it). After bathing, I love laying in bed in my birthday suit when someone opened the door, screamed and heard my mum apologising. Damn, I thought I locked the door.

Just woke up and felt really sian. Tomorrow is saturday and I love my saturday because it’s my rest day, but I had to attend my office party at night. So sian. To see these people 5 days a week and I then have to see them tomorrow again and a lot of other bigger shot people. SO SIAN!!!

Didn’t want to feel like I wasted my friday night so I studied/practise my sign language as I will officially starting my class on the coming tuesday. I feel really awkward and a bit retarded, my hands and fingers can’t coordinate! Decided to train my hand coordination, I took a orange and tried to do a one-orange-juggling. Throw one orange in the air and catch it with the other hand. It doesn’t sound difficult but it’s me. I’m sux at racquet games….throw me something and I cannot catch it. Guess what I’m doing now. I’m eating my very abused/bruised orange. =)

* My day isn’t as bad as DW. Hang in there my friend.