Archive for August, 2004

Bookworm

Sunday, August 29th, 2004

I finally finished ‘The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time’ on Saturday. Easy to read and not too bad, except I thought that the ending of the book was kind of sudden.

I bought 2 more books today - ‘The Melacholy Death of the Oyster Boy & Other Stories’ & ‘ The Alchemist’. I finished reading ‘The Melacholy Death of the Oyster Boy & Other Stories’ . I Love Tim Burton’s work. He is such genius!

Buying ‘ The Alchemist’ by Paulo Coelho was really out of impulse.

Damn, I still have ‘The Catcher in the Rye’ half read.

Ugly Singaporeans

Sunday, August 29th, 2004

Yesterday I went grocery shopping with dad. Waiting to cross the small road to NTUC parkway, I saw this old lady with a marketing trolley full of groceries standing at the side of the road. I wasn’t sure if she waiting for car to pick her up or waiting to cross. Then when the road cleared, while dad and me was crossing the road, she tried to lift the trolley. Upon reaching the other side, I asked if she was crossing the road in dialect, she said yes. I lifted her trolley which was filled with cans and bottles because I could hear them knocking against each other. Boy, it sure was heavy! I was also worried that the vegetables on the top might drop. Obviously a very full marketing trolley. Half way crossing the road while the old lady was trailing behind me, there was a FUCKING car honking at me. (Honking = many times!) But, I simply carried on and put the trolley on the middle of the road and went back to help the old lady. Hah! Yes, that was delibrate on my part. I glared at the driver of this dark blue Mercedes Benz and the driver was behind her Gucci sunglasses and her very permed hair just looked back. I was fucking pissed off with her ! Can’t she tell that I’m busy helping carrying heavy stuff for a old lady? Can’t wait for 2 seconds is it? In such hurry huh? ARGH!! After that, she just sped off…Fucked Up!!

Today, after coming home from lunch with dad, we took a bus home and along Joo Chiat Road, the bus stopped and a young couple boarded the bus followed by their young son. Meanwhile, someone pressed the bell as the door wasn’t open. Next thing I knew, the bus driver was shouting at someone. Initially I thought there as a mischevious boy that deserve some scolding then I realised what had happened - instead of opening the back door for the passenger to alight, he closed the front door. AND the door closed on someone. I was such a busybody and walked to the door to see the commotion and was shocked to discover an old man with an unbrella as a walking stick had his arm scratched and it was bleeding. Poor thing, he dare not board the bus. He didn’t trust the driver or the door for that matter. Driver was apologising and assured him that the door will remain open. But still, I saw the old man shaking and hesitately lifted his leg and then withdrawing again. I went down the bus, left leg on the road, right leg on the steps, back against the door and helped the old man up. I told him in dialect that the door will not slam on him because my back is blocking the door. Upon reaching the top, I stared at the driver and said firmly instructed him in mandarin, “Do not move the bus till the old man is seated!” The old man was settled next to me and his hand was still trembling and bleeding. I couldn’t offer much so I searched my wallet for a plaster and offered to him. Like an obedient child, he held his hand out for me to nurse his wound. Poor driver was so apologetic but the old man was so nice to tell him that he’s okay.

Do you know what I learnt with these 2 incidents? Singaporean have that sit-back and see-what-happens kind of attitute that I’m simply disgusted. Yes, I agree that my actions are such a great deal, but it’s really dissappointing to see people living in their comfort zone and not wanting to lift and dirty their fingers to help.

Disclaimer: I was really unglam with one leg up the steps but I assure you all that most days I’m totally feminine. REALLY!! =P

Sexy Boy

Sunday, August 29th, 2004

I missed Yoga today to continue sleeping because I was having a sexy dream about KL.

The Little Prince

Saturday, August 28th, 2004

I love the book ‘The Little Prince’ by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry. I even bought 2 different publication. Hah!

It’s really a very easy book to read. Think it’s a child’s book (only can be found in the kids section of Borders). But do anyone truely understand the book?

GL’s explanation of the book:
“for every new place he visits on earth, he brings his unadulterated innocence, a perspective, a way of looking at things”

Bubble Gum Pink

Friday, August 27th, 2004

Am in good spirits. Just came back shopping with GL. Only bought shampoo and g-strings (On sale, 3 for $9. With Swarovski crystals too).

We ate so much, laughed so hard we were holding our tummies most of the time. Hahaa…

We went into our Bimbo moods again and tried everything in Pink. Shoes and dresses that made us look anything like “Stepford Wife” to Barbie Dolls. We even tried this bubblegum pink shoes and pretended to act like Jessica Simpsons. We bat our eyelashes, twirl our hair, pretending to be cute and basically talked rubbish. Hahaa… Then the salesgirl asked if we wanted to try our size, we immediately said a firm. “NO!” Wahahaaa…

Shopping with GL always never fails to put me in good spirits.

P/S: See Deficiency.

Fuck it!

Thursday, August 26th, 2004

I’m just not going to stress anymore. Just going to leave to fate, God, time, whatever…

Going to sit back and see what happens. Fucking hate to stress and worry all the time.

Fuck it, I say! Fuck it!

DINK

Wednesday, August 25th, 2004

DL from office just gave birth last month. Her first child. She registered her marriage in 2001 after ‘matched made with her husband and was together for about 2 years. She then had the customary marriage in December 2002. By December 2003, she was already expecting. Her son’s first month’s celebration at her place next weekend which I have to attend. That’s the same DL that declared that she don’t want to have babies because, she nearly lost her sister during her childbirth, child birth is too painful, pregnancy makes her fat and most importantly, she love the financial independence. Yes, DL and her husband bought a spanking new flashy car although they were expecting a child in August 2004.

VC, my other colleague, left home in South Africa at 18 years of age against family objection to be with her Singaporean partner who was still studying in Canada, in which she only met on holiday for 2 weeks. She lived with her partner in Canada until he finished school and returned back to Singapore and was married. Lived with her husband in a landed properties and 2 huskies. Writes for a living and dance for passion. She’s leading the life I dreamt of since I was 14. Guess what? She’s only one year older than me. After swearing off, no child policy because they want to live alone and kids are way too expensive (?!?!?). Today, she told me that she is considering to have a child. Why? She says she’s turning 30 next year. Gosh! I love her, I love her life even more.

Moving on

Wednesday, August 25th, 2004

I think when one reaches a certain age, he/she needs to move out of the house and live on their own and lead their own life.

There’s too much friction at home especially with my mum. I need my own space. Problems with tidiness, hygiene, laundry, food, noise, privacy, etc. Trying to please everyone except myself. I hate myself.

By June 2005, if I’m still stuck at my parent’s home, I’ll move out on my own. That’s a promise I solemnly made to myself. I think after surviving a suicide attempt about 10 years ago and given another chance in life, I MUST make myself the top piority and I truely believe, I deserve way better.

Generation

Wednesday, August 25th, 2004

I think I can be labelled’ Generation X’. And then there’s the ‘Generation Y’. KL says that now it’s the ‘Sex in the City Generation’

Heh!

By the way, I was watching Sex and the City on HBO the other day and it was so bad, because they had to cut so many scenes. Hahaa….luckily I watched the whole entire seasons already, without cuts and nothing but the action.

Screw you

Monday, August 23rd, 2004

I really didn’t want to blog about this, but apparently it must be really affecting me that I dreamt of it at least twice so far and think about it numerous times a day.


Jessica Alba

Pretty meh? Lips too thick and looks like a mutt (you know what i mean)!

Diet

Monday, August 23rd, 2004

I decided to go healthy and watch my diet. Decided that I should pack lunch every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Hopefully can save money too. I love going out lunch with my colleagues coz we always take the opportunity to bitch…hehee.

My meal for today includes:-

Breakfast: 1 banana

Lunch: 2 slices of toasted Wholemeal Bread with romaine lettuce, healthy turkey and low fat melted cheese.

Dinner: Chicken Rice! <– all dieting gone to waste!

*sigh.

Was planning to go for a jog after work, but when I fell asleep in the bus with my mouth opened, my whole body went soft. Without exercising and after a hearty Chicken Rice dinner, all I want to do now is sleep.

So much for dieting!

Cooking

Sunday, August 22nd, 2004

I love cooking.

But I just discovered that I only enjoy it if I cook with you or for you.

I officially hate cooking now, till I see you again!

Blur or Denial

Saturday, August 21st, 2004

I’m not sure if it’s because I haven’t told my dad the actual plan or maybe he is just in denial. He seemed to think that KL is coming back soon and we’ll live happily ever after here in hot smelly Singapore.

Worse of all, he always say things like, “if KL is here, we’ll finish all the food.” or “when KL comes back, we go Bangkok together.”

Just about 2 weeks ago, he said, “if you win the lottery, buy that maisonette opposite our house with KL.”

Huh? I thought I had already told him that KL and me wanna reside in Australia? He do know that KL is trying to get a job there. I’m really confused.

Then, he asked me today, ” so, when is KL coming back.”

I surrender!!! *throw hands in air*

Six Sense

Friday, August 20th, 2004

Said: I have repeatedly said, “Life is a box of crap, you’d always know that you’re going get more crap.”

Touch: HK who swears against going to church is now a reborned christian going to church with his new found love. Awww….

Saw: A youth driving a Skyline, walking into the 7-11 to get condoms at the counter while his not so pretty female companion waits for him in the comforts of the air conditioned car.

Smell: The wonderful smell of Fried Chicken at KFC.

Heard: A man on the bus saying, “Fucking boss. I would like to screw him in the backside!” Huh?!?!??

Thought: How nice it would be to be married, have babies and be a tai-tai… hmm…

Happy like Bird

Friday, August 20th, 2004

Forgot to mention. Over the weekend, someone says I look 23-24. Heheee…

Snail Mail

Thursday, August 19th, 2004

Woke up today again and didn’t feel like going to work. Yes, I’ve recovered, but no motivation to go work. Getting sick and tired of life in general. Received a mail (snail mail) from Sarah from France. Met her on my plane ride home last year from Melbourne. She’s only 16 years old and we had lots of fun on the plane – I had to explain English words in the Harry Potter book she was reading. Imagine an Asian girl, explaining (sometimes, animated) English words to a very Caucasian girl. Lot of people were staring! Hehee…She went alone to Australia and travel for about a month and was on her way home to France. Anyway, it’s really nice receiving mail in the letterbox rather than electronic mails. I love old-skool. Sometimes, old fashion is so cool! So heartwarming actually, despite the fact I was feeling damn crap the whole week.

Sick of Life

Wednesday, August 18th, 2004

Feeling damn shit last night. Quickly took medication. But I woke up feeling damn crap today. Fever was 37.4C. Called in sick and slept the whole day. Woke up, ate 2 pieces of waffles and went back to sleep again. By nighttime, my fever is gone.

Envious

Tuesday, August 17th, 2004

VC told me today about her weekend trip to Malaysia. Seemed like since they got a four-wheel drive, they’ve been joining like four-wheels drive trip to Malaysia. Hiking to see waterfalls, climbing up the mountain to see a spectacular view, etc. I’m in an envious mood again.

Imbecile

Monday, August 16th, 2004

Woke up with a headache. Office is awfully understaffed today. All that stupid incompetent manager’s fault. I’m overworked and underpaid. DAMN! Had a meeting this afternoon and seemed to have pushed him a bit too far. Hah! Useless Imbecile !!

my lunch came out

Sunday, August 15th, 2004

Just finished watching some Ballroom dancing competition on TV while having lunch. The weird thing was watching an Italian pair of brother and sister team dancing together. They had to do the Rumba, Cha Cha, Tango,etc. They had to do all the sexy moves, touch each other, looked into each other eyes – Eeww! No wonder they were last in ranking.

I also hate watching kids do ballroom dancing. How do kids understand and express those feelings? Anyway, brother and sister team is just as bad. SO incestuous!