HazyDaze

An update on my 1st week at work.

Monday:
- orientation and then was given a haversack (with corporate logo) with (mug, umbrella, water bottle, keychain, pen, notebook, organiser, etc with corporate logo).
- by afternoon, I was already looking at a case.
- boss asked me to go to this seminar the next day(which is my second day of work) coz he can’t go and I had to go replace him.
- then he signed me up to some seminar in March.
- tired, exhausted and slept by 11pm.

Tuesday:
- spent the whole day in orientation class but during breaks and lunch, I had to came down to work (while the rest of the newbies hang around to gossip & chat because they didn’t need to report back to their office until Wednesday)
- after lunch, boss told me not to go to the seminar but instead go with them to some social function thingy after work.
- at this high profile social function thingy, I was introduced to Ministers, Big Shots, high flyers and local Celebrities I don’t know. And my boss told everyone that it was my 2nd day of work. Damn paiseh!
- tired, exhausted and slept by 10pm.

Wednesday:
- run around the office building trying to retrive my laptop & telephone and hooking them up.
- kept getting lost. Building too big.
- boss and colleague not around the whole afternoon and left me to run the office alone. Nearly died.
- tired, exhausted and slept by 12am.

Thursday:
- first to be in the office, and then my boss came in and said, “Sorry, I am late!” Huh? Who is the boss huh?
- went to some government building to collect documents.
- had a consultation with a walk-in customer.
- tired, exhausted and slept by 11pm.

Friday:
- was asked to help in a confidential sensitive high profile case.
- corrected the bosses mistake numerous times.
- boss and colleague praise me.

A very delayed flight with a very crowded airport equals a very grouchy me on Sunday morning. Slept most of Sunday and went to work yesterday.

On my first day of work, I was asked to attend seminars - particularly to one today… alone.

Then, today, went official function events with boss and senior partner after office hours. I angry with KL because he didn’t pick me up as arranged. I exhausted and aching everywhere.

I can’t wait till the weekend to come.

Why one married couple get excited being pregnant, while we are so damn fucking relieved (we went to celebrate) to have my period after just 4 days of being late?

I think I GL quarrelled with me today. Well, not quarrel if I didn’t scream back at her. I know she reads this blog. Still, I want to say my worth. She knows better than to judge me for what I wrote in my space.

Okay, not quarrel, but snapped at me. It all started with me arriving early at brekkie alone and after ’shooing’ away many ‘ah peks’ who wanted to sit with me. For what it’s worth, I already called BS while walking to the location. So, I itchy finger when to text BS - “Hurry Up”. And I backside itchy, forwarded to GL too.

Moments later, GL called back and yelled, “Oei. You always late and how dare you hurry me? I don’t like it. blah blah…” SHIT! Its been a long time since she got angry with me. People always get angry with me. I must be no social skills. After letting her yell over the fone, I said, “Okay, sorry… Chill it babe.” Which I thought was another bad approach. Hahaa.. I need to brush up on my social communication skills or something.

Anyway, when she arrived, she started snapping at me again. I felt embarress coz we were obviously in public and she had that great big eyes on me. Waving her fingers and yelling almost. I kept calm coz I’m sure I was in the wrong too. Luckly, BS changed topic and all is forgotten.

Until she went at it the 3rd time. In front of BS and NL. About how I was “always” late and how everyone always wait for me. Huh? Seriously, we are talking about me here? I agree, the last time we met for brekkie, I was late. I’m very rarely late. This time, the sun was in my eyes and irritating the hell out of me. Her serious teacher face, tone of her voice and waving of the fingers at me made me mad. I came close to yelling back, but didnt. I didn’t wanna be confrontational. I left her yelling at me as if I was some kid who didn’t pass up her homework. Honestly, I am super embarressed and the finger waving was uber rude. Especially to a dear friend. Although, she probably learnt her finger waving from me (did that to the loser boss), I don’t really think it’s neccessary to treat me like her students.

In my defence, I feel bad that my best friends have to revolve their life around me whenever I’m in town. I appreciate their time and attention. But, I was only late that one time and normally, I would be good to inform the person if I am late.

I blame it on my itchy backside and maybe my wrong choice of words. GL has always been sensitive with choice of words. She hates it when people call her and asked, “Where are you?” or “What you doing?”. We all know that she takes her privacy very seriously. Stupid insensitive best friend I am to text her “Hurry Up”, when I could have text, “I’m here already. Will wait for you.” Maybe then, I wouldn’t get myself in trouble. Yes, it felt like I was a kid and was in some serious trouble to be lectured in public like that.

Nevertheless, I’m a pretty tolerant person. Especially when it comes to friends and family. KL thinks I might be a pushover but if you are a good friend of mine, you’ll know that I’m not usually confrontational. Also, I seldom bear grudges and tend to forget why I/others are angry in the first place.

GL might have a tough morning (her mum nagging at her) and it was absolute bad timing and all others on my end. Then again, maybe it gets like that when we spend TOO much time with each other. I still can ’stand’ her coz she’s like that. Even BS would say, “Aiyah, she’s like that lor!” So, I’m good. I’m not angry or upset with her - we still laughed and joked over brekkie with BS and NL and we walked to the bus stop together. Bad way to say - “I’m used to it.” But I’m to blame too. Still I don’t think deserved the finger waving and the stern teacher-scolding-the-kid lecture. As cliche as it sounds, I think our friendship is strong and even if we did indeed fight, it wouldn’t last too long.

To GL,
I’m sorry for the text this morning. I trust that I’m not self-centred or at least, I try not to be. Please don’t label me as someone who is always late because, I’m pretty sure I am not and hate to hear that I am.

All is good between you and me. I’m sad to be leaving here again and I regretted not having enough time to hang with you. Although I think we did spend quite a bit of quality time together and anything more, you’ll be sick of me again.

Let’s not talk about this again. No one is right or wrong. I know I can be fustrating to be with sometimes, I get that all the time. Between you and me, we have enough clothes to last till christmas at least. I promise to come back shopping more often which means I can only look and no-buy when I’m in KoalaLand. Till we see each other again for shopping. I’ll miss you.

Love,
Your other French & Sauder half and shopping buddy, HL.

p/s: will get that shorts and ship back to you.

DTAC declared today that I’m already belong to KoalaLand, which is so unfair coz I simply said I was getting fustrated here already and glad to be returning back to KoalaLand.

In my defence, I don’t walk as if I have something up my arse and/or with my chin in the air.

I still address KL’s mother - “auntie”. It’s hard to change, maybe I refused to. I don’t know. It’s also natural after over 10 years of calling “auntie”, it’s hard to adjust.

In my defence, KL calls my parents, “uncle” and “auntie”.
*roll eyes *

Scared fall sick coz starting work on monday - Lost voice yesterday due to too much talking.

Screen saver mode by 9pm - Still 3hrs ahead.

Glad to be going back soon - Can’t stand mum. Blood boiling. Better relationship being away.

Miss KL like mad - hardly talk since I came here. I want that big ape to hug me to sleep. Can’t sleep well at night.

Worried might be allergic to dogs - Mumbles and Bailey makes me itch and sneeze. How to get our own?

I’m getting fatter. Arrived Fat - nothing to do with eating too much.

Still havn’t eaten Hollywood Duck Rice, Katong SC Chicken Rice, Market’s Fish Head Noodles.

Guilty that I might have overspent - In my defence, I needed those suits coz it fits better and cheaper. Plus everything else I bought was a good deal. GL & Cousin S can vouch for that.

Worried that K’s mum wants to see me - Sian. No time. Nothing to talk about.

Lots of pictures to load when get home.

Darling, I’m coming back soon. Miss you like crazy.

I’m very proud of myself. I’ve only been back for 1 week and I managed to spend so much time with people I love and care. I wrote a list of people that I wanna meet and I stuck almost everyone off my list.

GL - spent the whole of yesterday shopping with her only. It was the most fun. I miss our frequent shopping trips. I’m glad I get to spent quality time with her although it was exhausting (the shopping, not her).

BS & NL - had brekkie with BS and then he tour-guided me around our neighbourhood. We got bored and went Seng Siong. Did a bit of grocery shopping. Realised he is so Housewifey!! He knows the names and the prices of the fishes and vegetables!?!? Wah Lau!

DW - show and tell over tea at Bugis. Oh, we watched fireworks too. Hehee… And got outselves chased out of the cafe coz they were closing. Hahaa…

DTAC- shamelessly made DTAC buy me lunch, then dragged him to Bras Basah to help choose for me a chinese dictionary. Embarrassed the hell out of him coz it was weird for him to be out lunching with a “married woman”. Hahaa…

AK (KL’s fren) - had supper with him and advised him to go for a marriage preparation course for his upcoming marriage. He also told me about his future plans and his financial burden. *sigh… nice chap.

Aunty Lily - went to her house and raided her cupboard. Ate some yummy stew pork thingy. Had a nice chat with her and was updated with Cousin SS’s career. Went home with a Gucci and Chanel Bag. =)

Cousin CC - rekindled our relationship after a long pause of absence. Found that she is all grown up and probably too matured for her own good. So glad that I had a chance to know her better. I’m happy to know she is doing well despite her/our disfunctional family. Proud of her. Really.

Cousin S - had lunch and tried to encourage her to take up a baking/pastry class. Told her that she is talented and can do so much more. Realised that she’s happy with her life at the moment. Felt it’s such a waste, but at least I give her ideas and tried to motivate her. I’m relieved to have told her how I feel.

Aunty Anna - tomorrow

Oh! And I did all that (quality time) plus did a lot of shopping too.
I bought, 5 suits, 4 pairs of shoes, 5 business shirts, 3 Cardigan, 3 winter jackets, 4 nonsense casual skirts, 2 bras, 2 belts, 1 necklace, 1 bag, 1 chinese dictionary, some toiletries, some foodstuff, and even a few KL’s shirts. Wow!

On Valentine’s Day today…

I had lunch with DTAC (guy friend from poly). I called him on Sunday and said, “Oei! I know you have no date for lunch on Valentine’s Day this tuesday, wanna buy me lunch?”. DTAC replied that he had over 10 dates waiting for his reply but he will have lunch with me since I came all the way back to SunnyLand and wants to meet him. Heh! I responsed, “Oei! Remember a dozen red roses, chocolates and huge teddy bear. Wait for me at the fountain at noon.”

We had lunch together with a lot of other goondu couples with flowers. Hahaa… There was this free picture taking thingy and I dragged DTAC to take a couple picture. DTAC was so shy and kept repeating to the girl, “She’s married!! I’m not her husband!” Hahaa… he was so embarressed. I kept telling the girl, “I’m his mistress!”

Then everywhere we went, there was school kids selling roses and we were approached coz I wasn’t hold any flowers. Everytime, DTAC would shake his head and wave his hand frentically and repeated, “She’s married!! I’m not her husband!” Hahaa…

It was nice to meet up an old friend. Of course, free meals are always good. DTAC has always been a good friend and we always kept in touch with each other via MSN. He was there for me at my lowest point and I am glad to be there for him when he had difficulties with his family and job. Since he has always been a good shopping companion too, he helped me pick out a corporate suit and a Chinese dictionary.

Although KL and I don’t celebrate this overly commercialised day, I still love being pampered and showered with gifts. Most of my shopping here are more or less done. I just want to go home to be with KL as soon as possible. I do really miss him. Sitting in front of my old computer in my old room, makes me think about those 4 years we were apart. It still feels very surreal, as if I didn’t leave SunnyLand. But when I look at my left hand and touch my wedding band, I realised, we finally made it - we got married.

Can’t wait to get back in KL’s arms.

Yesterday:
- Woke up at 7.55am (SunnyLand time)
- Washed up, visited old man with an angbao and oranges next door.
- Then called ex-colleagues to update them.
- Ran to market to meet GL and BS for brekkie only to be distracted by the AngBao draw.
- Donated $10 to Sunnyland Pools.
- Had big brekkie with soya milk with the possies. (Too bad, NL already left for work. We wanted to wave goodbye to her. Hehee..)
- Mum invited herself < -- *sigh
- Went back to BS’s place to play with bailey.
- GL plucked my eyebrows. BS picked up Bailey’s poo.
- Discovered bad allergy on upper lip.
- Went to Suntec in the pouring rain.
- Got disorientated and needed to sit down. Bought nothing.
- Called Aunty Anna
- Went to PP via bus with BS. Nearly puked. Stupid public transport.
- Bought lots of clothes and shoes.
- Mum called and wanted to gate-crash again. *sigh. Guilt.
- Had Sushi with BS, NL and GL.
- Home.
- Chatted with MT on the fone for 2 hrs
- Showered
- Chatted with Anna on the fone for 2hrs.
- Zzzzzzzzzzzz

Amidst the cold stark neon lights
Rubbing shoulders with the cats of the nights
Like missing someone at three in the morning
Like watering a flower that is already wilting

And though faces come and go
And while memories fade when old
We will miss th old names calling
And the late nights telephone ringing

And the desire to burn will still go on
While the party will be long gone
We will still be walking down the street
Some more jaded hearts will we meet

*copyright of KL (found this stuck on my notice board on the wall of my room)

I’m back in my old room typing away now. Everything seems so familiar. Missing KL badly. Since its bloody late (koala land time zone 4am now), I’m a bit stoned.

Although I managed to napped a bit in the plane, but the flight was pretty bad with lots of nausating turbulence. Nearly puke many times.

Just came back supper and kopitiam gossip with BS/NL and GL.

Fustrated with the cable connection of my digital camera. Will sort out tomorrow. Nites.

Missing KL badly.

Going back to see my folks and friends in a few hours. I’m nervous, sad and excited all roll into one. I begin missing KL right after my tickets were confirmed. I kept wanting to hug that big ape, I call husband. I came close to tears thinking about how much I would miss him.

Strangely, this time round, going back to SunnyLand without him is by choice. People asked why I’m going back without him. Well, its only a short holiday and I wanted to see the people I love and care about before I embark in my new job. I might not get a chance to come back so often anymore. Also, its the perfect timing. My parents need me, GL is lost with her future, BS is feeling crappy with his current job. Need to get more corporate clothes too since its cheaper. I want to do the things and meet with the people I wasn’t able to in November. And lastly, I hope to take more pictures this time round.

GL asked me this morning to bring my bathing suit. I’m not so sure if I have the time to busk in the sun with her that much. Nevertheless, I brought.

Anyway, I’m feeling nauseous again. I miss KL already. Aiyah. Why we have to be apart for a while to appreciate each other better. Think I’m saddistic.

Anyway some part of me wishes that he can’t survive and do well without me, while the other wants him function probably without me nagging. But I think I can hear him from my parent’s home screaming, “Dear… where’s my socks?” *sigh… I’ve done all I can. Laundry washed and ironed. House cleaned. Trashed taken out. List of instructions provided.

I love you dear. I’ll come home soon. I promise.

I realised, suddenly, everyone wanna be my friend now.

M who is leaving for good needs my help with luggage space. Damn it. I’m taking the same flight as her. If you think I talk a lot, you should meet her.

MT started getting friendly with me when she knows what company I’m going to be working for. She hope that I might help her with her job hunt too.

Running around like a mad dog today. Drove KL to work, then driving long distance to get the car serviced. Came home threw clothes in the washing machine and dryer. Just had lunch. I’ve got to head to the library to return books (coz i know KL will forget), open bank account and get sweets for Aunty Anna.

I haven’t pack yet.

Evidence of my binge drinking last friday - me holding beer. Hehee…

I don’t want to go. I miss KL already!!

I went for another interview this morning. This time, a different industry.

I was interviewed by the lady office manager and her boss. The boss acted like he is so superior and during the 1hr and 15mins interview, he was snotty and arrognant and mainly asked a whole lot of stupid questions. Seemed like he already had an idea of how he wanted me to answer and kept interruptting me when I was answering his question. Also, he kept insisting that my previous job is too glamorous and rigit and I can’t adapt to change. Oh, he also says that I had too much of “Power” in my previous job and might not do well in this job. No matter how much examples i cite to him that its not like how he think about my previous job, his ears are shut. He refused to believe and hear.

*sigh… strange. As an interviewer, won’t it be great that I am able to show you that I am the right person for the job?

Well, rest of the staff are spore/msian… all girls. so i think i’ll very easy make friends but I would much prefer mixing with locals since I’m going to be here for long term.

Anyway, about an hour ago, that interviewer (the one i have been waiting for a long time) called. I got the job. Pay sucks coz they only can give me base pay. hahaa… But future progress is good. They wanna support my course expenses. But now worried since the office only have 2 senior staff and 1 admin clerk (part time, comes in twice a week). I have no one to turn to. I’ll be alone!

*so lon-er-ree….so lon-er-reee…

As I am writing now, I hope there isn’t any alcohol left in my system. You see, last night we went to attend a farewell party of a friend. She is returning to SunnyLand coz her visa has expired. A couple of years ago, I envied her - she managed to get a company to sponsor her to come Koala Land to work while her newly-acquired boyfriend is studying here. And I (with a 10 year long relationship with KL) was stuck in SunnyLand enduring my 4 years long distance relationship.

Green eyed monster in me was awaken. I don’t think I have that much friends (over 40+ people came last night). Heard she had some farewell party in SunnyLand before she came and now this. I guess I’m more personal. I had private dinners with different groups of friends/families before I embarked on my journey to Koala Land.

Anyway, that’s beside the point. For once, KL is the designated driver, so I went bonkers. I started with a Martini and at the end of the night, I dosed down a total of 8 drinks. I remember that there was no kick with Martini and I ordered beer next. I’m a Beer-girl anytime. So, I had 1 Martini, 1 Champaign, 1 Volka thingy and apparently 5 Beers. By the way, the beer at this nice club cost $3. WooHoo!!

I was impressed with myself having not drank like this in ages. However, it was shortlived. KL took me home, somehow I managed to shower, shampoo and even conditioned my hair all by myself. But when he put me to bed, I asked for the bin and puke ONCE. Hehee… The rest of it, I can’t really remember. Oppssie!

Should have stopped at my 7th drink. Next time, I know I had my fill when for the 4th time in the hour, you go to the loo to wee, you nearly missed aim the porcelain throne and almost sat on the floor instead. Hehee…

I’m so lousy! Sooo out of practise. But, I didn’t misbehave. I remember quite clearly what happened, who I chatted with and all. I even took care of CT coz she was in her drunken/nonsense mood. KL says, I’m already talkative by nature but when I’m intoxicated by alcohol, I am twice as chatty and naggy apparently. Heh… well, at least I don’t do/behave/act stupidly.

I woke up this morning still tipsy, drank lots of water and somehow even managed to go to the post office to mail dad something. The rest of the day was a haze. I just woke up from a 3hr nap. KL still snoozing.

*lights from last night’s club.

Update!! Interviewer called!!! I nearly fainted when I saw the number flashing on the fone.

He said “Yet another week have past and I’m sorry I still don’t have any new updates for you. But I want u to know that something is being done.”

Then he said that HR people needed more information and he have been running around to provide them with more details.

Gosh! Is this positive??? Hope he is not leading me on. Shouldn’t be. He is such a nice person to call to update me. Very professional and respectable in his field. If I get this job, he will be my immediate boss. He used to be some Big Shot for a govt department. Then he left to join this company, maybe head hunter, I don’t know.

Anyway, its friday and I tried not to contact him. So fucking happy that he did.

Back in the dumps again. When will that guy call me??? ARGH!!! How long does HR need to take???? Its freaking February already!!!