In my defence (III)
I think I GL quarrelled with me today. Well, not quarrel if I didn’t scream back at her. I know she reads this blog. Still, I want to say my worth. She knows better than to judge me for what I wrote in my space.
Okay, not quarrel, but snapped at me. It all started with me arriving early at brekkie alone and after ’shooing’ away many ‘ah peks’ who wanted to sit with me. For what it’s worth, I already called BS while walking to the location. So, I itchy finger when to text BS - “Hurry Up”. And I backside itchy, forwarded to GL too.
Moments later, GL called back and yelled, “Oei. You always late and how dare you hurry me? I don’t like it. blah blah…” SHIT! Its been a long time since she got angry with me. People always get angry with me. I must be no social skills. After letting her yell over the fone, I said, “Okay, sorry… Chill it babe.” Which I thought was another bad approach. Hahaa.. I need to brush up on my social communication skills or something.
Anyway, when she arrived, she started snapping at me again. I felt embarress coz we were obviously in public and she had that great big eyes on me. Waving her fingers and yelling almost. I kept calm coz I’m sure I was in the wrong too. Luckly, BS changed topic and all is forgotten.
Until she went at it the 3rd time. In front of BS and NL. About how I was “always” late and how everyone always wait for me. Huh? Seriously, we are talking about me here? I agree, the last time we met for brekkie, I was late. I’m very rarely late. This time, the sun was in my eyes and irritating the hell out of me. Her serious teacher face, tone of her voice and waving of the fingers at me made me mad. I came close to yelling back, but didnt. I didn’t wanna be confrontational. I left her yelling at me as if I was some kid who didn’t pass up her homework. Honestly, I am super embarressed and the finger waving was uber rude. Especially to a dear friend. Although, she probably learnt her finger waving from me (did that to the loser boss), I don’t really think it’s neccessary to treat me like her students.
In my defence, I feel bad that my best friends have to revolve their life around me whenever I’m in town. I appreciate their time and attention. But, I was only late that one time and normally, I would be good to inform the person if I am late.
I blame it on my itchy backside and maybe my wrong choice of words. GL has always been sensitive with choice of words. She hates it when people call her and asked, “Where are you?” or “What you doing?”. We all know that she takes her privacy very seriously. Stupid insensitive best friend I am to text her “Hurry Up”, when I could have text, “I’m here already. Will wait for you.” Maybe then, I wouldn’t get myself in trouble. Yes, it felt like I was a kid and was in some serious trouble to be lectured in public like that.
Nevertheless, I’m a pretty tolerant person. Especially when it comes to friends and family. KL thinks I might be a pushover but if you are a good friend of mine, you’ll know that I’m not usually confrontational. Also, I seldom bear grudges and tend to forget why I/others are angry in the first place.
GL might have a tough morning (her mum nagging at her) and it was absolute bad timing and all others on my end. Then again, maybe it gets like that when we spend TOO much time with each other. I still can ’stand’ her coz she’s like that. Even BS would say, “Aiyah, she’s like that lor!” So, I’m good. I’m not angry or upset with her - we still laughed and joked over brekkie with BS and NL and we walked to the bus stop together. Bad way to say - “I’m used to it.” But I’m to blame too. Still I don’t think deserved the finger waving and the stern teacher-scolding-the-kid lecture. As cliche as it sounds, I think our friendship is strong and even if we did indeed fight, it wouldn’t last too long.
To GL,
I’m sorry for the text this morning. I trust that I’m not self-centred or at least, I try not to be. Please don’t label me as someone who is always late because, I’m pretty sure I am not and hate to hear that I am.
All is good between you and me. I’m sad to be leaving here again and I regretted not having enough time to hang with you. Although I think we did spend quite a bit of quality time together and anything more, you’ll be sick of me again.
Let’s not talk about this again. No one is right or wrong. I know I can be fustrating to be with sometimes, I get that all the time. Between you and me, we have enough clothes to last till christmas at least. I promise to come back shopping more often which means I can only look and no-buy when I’m in KoalaLand. Till we see each other again for shopping. I’ll miss you.
Love,
Your other French & Sauder half and shopping buddy, HL.
p/s: will get that shorts and ship back to you.