HazyDaze

Tao hua yun at the most unlikely time. One younger, one older. But at my fine age of 30+, I’m not complaining.

Except, I wish for more quality.

My crappy Canon Ixus 400 died on me 3 weeks ago. I’ve check and I had it since November 2002. KL says it’s only memory card that is spoilt but I refuse to believe him because I have been wanting to get a new Canon Ixus over a year. But because I’m me and I will not get new gadget until it dies on me, I didn’t get a new camera last year when I was back in Sunnyland.

Since last year, I had my eyes set on the Canon Ixus 850IS. It smaller, lighter and even has the cool stabliser thingy and whats best - the screen is so much bigger and better than my current one. Well, I didn’t get it cause my current camera refuse to die. Besides, Dad’s friend (who owns a camera shop) says the Canon Ixus 400 is better the body is more rugged and solid. Besides, the technology is not that advance that my current camera is obsolute. Well, thats true. Seeing that it’s over 4 years old and still going on strong, I suppose it’s wise to wait for its natural death than to get a new one.

Then, I saw this Canon Ixus 75 in the shops lately and realised it’s the new and latest Canon Ixus that was released. It’s thinner, and sleeker than the 850 but it doesn’t have the stabliser thingy. *sigh… I don’t know. It’s definately newer than the 850 but I guess, I’ll try to resist to get a new camera until my current antique Canon konk off.

Technology is changing so fast and people are changing their camera, mobile phones and even computers so often. But I believe in giving my gadget time and let it run its course. I don’t know. Maybe technology is not built to last that long anyway. I’ll try to make sure my mobile phone and camera really cannot function before getting a new one. But I don’t know how long am I going to resist.

KL is back. He lost his luggage (airline lost it) and then they found it.

I’m happy.

He bought me these:

I’ve always wanted an Abercrombie Hoodie!! And this is soooo comfortable.

And this was totally spontanous. He got me a tube top. Super soft and the lace at the bottom is gorgerous - reminds me of my wedding gown. It’s a sale item too - Well Done, babe!

I’ve been using Issey Miyake during my Poly days and mum stole my signature smell and I had to find something else because I simply refuse to smell like her. I tried this Issey Miyake - Drop of the Petal (Limited Edition)here and I love it so I text KL to get it for me at the Dutyfree, but he bought it at Macy’s anyway. Woohoo!! I finally have something from Macy’s. Best thing was, he bought it at about $69 and it’s selling for $112 here.

I love it all. Best part was - it fits perfectly!

Shoot. KL is coming back tomorrow and I’m going to get it from him. I’ve been shopping too much while he’s gone to “drown” my sorrows/loneliness.

It all started with 2 Fridays ago. I was still blue from misery when I went shopping with Co. Saw a tweed swing jacket on sale at Sportsgirl - from $130 to $69.90. Love it so bought it. Great for winter too.

Then the next day (Saturday), I drove us to Chaddy because its really far away and Co don’t get to go there often.

I bought his Black swing jacket this season in anticipation of the coming winter. It took me a long while to think about it because of the price. The picture don’t do justice to the perfect luxurious cut of the jacket. Its classy too.

Then I bought myself a nice leather ballet flats shoe for work from Nine West costing over $100. *sigh… for work.

With that, I spent nearly $400. *tsk.

This week, I bought myself an expensive bag. I have been eyeing this bag for the longest time and even Co love it so much she bought it last week. I tried to tahan but, I am so in love with it.

I have been interested in the Balenciaga motorcycle bag for a long time but the price is ridiculous. This bag I bought (in sandy brown) is perfect. More feminine, more elegant, cheaper also.

Not to mention that I bought a $20 black cardi today. How many black cardis do you need? - Co asked.

*sigh… still, KL will kill me probably. But I’m happy. I will endevour not to buy anything for the next month or two (realistic).

Looking forward to the gifts from KL tomorrow

Its one of those extremely tiring days at work and it gets longer. What made it worse was that I had to go gym and then have dinner with boss and Syd colleagues.

I just got home. At 11.18pm to be exact. My day couldn’t get any longer or any more tiring.

On the way home on the cab (company paying), I couldn’t help but to grab out my mobile fone to call or text someone. I have this impulsive urge to let someone know that I’m heading home from work. Maybe I have been well trained by dad - to report every move.

All my life I have been “trained” to report my every move. As far back as I remembered, I remember in primary school, I have band practise on Saturdays but I never go home straight after dismissal. One day, playing in a playground opposite school, I spotted dad’s car and I knew instantly I was in trouble. True to that, I went home and had a earful about not coming home straight after school and got a whacking as well.

Then, in early secondary school, mum decided to return to the workforce. After school everyday, I had to knock on my grandmother’s window to announce that I’m home. Everyday, without fail. Although I doubt she hear me everytime.

Soon, I started partying. Dad comes home around 6pm, just about the time I’m about to leave for Zouk. I always tell him where I go and get rewarded $50 taxi fare. It’s dad’s way of letting me enjoy but be safe. Even when I go clubbing alone, or with some new friend I made, I always make sure I tell my then-friend, Qianting. She knows I’ll give her a ring when I come home safe and sound. Well, she’s not exactly a great tracker, she doesn’t do anything when I come back drunk and go straight to bed without calling her.

After those “wild days”, I had KL. I spent almost every waking moment with him. Dad knew where I was so I didn’t really had to report to him. Besides, I had a pager then, he knows how to reach me, I won’t dare not to return his page.

I guess the routine was back again when KL went to the army. I was back to reporting to dad. He was worried that I was missing KL too much.

Anyway, since KL came to Melly to study, I would text/call him often to update him with my daily schedule. Basically, it was just a way to stay in touch.

Tonight, I was lost. Lost for the lack of people to report to. I didn’t want to text/call KL because I know he is sleeping. I couldn’t text my dad because…well, just because. Strangely, I really wanted to inform someone about my whereabouts.

Of course, I know everyone is different. GL hates it when we ask her what’s she doing or where is she. Even if it’s just casually asking. Do I have a problem wanting to inform someone about my whereabouts?

I’m going to sleep now. Tired!

Since KL left for Vegas on Thursday, I have been keeping myself busy with VCDs that my dad brought from home.

I started watching “Full House”, a korean drama on Thursday night coz I couldn’t sleep. I cried until cannot cry everynight. I hate korean dramas, always make it cry. But it’s so addictive!

Last night I slept at 1.30am because I wanted to watch the last disc. Its amazing that I spent 5 days to watch 16 disc (about 1hour each). No surprise that I woke up with a puffy eyes again. My boss thinks I’m still unwell.

I’m not starting a new korean drama although I have a couple of more shows. I’m giving myself a break today. Giving myself a break from crying everynight and waking up looking like shit. Besides, I’ve ran out of tissue paper and using toilet paper roll instead.

I hate posting about how much I miss KL but I really can’t help thinking about him.

Last night, I was feeling my lowest when GL, BS and NL came online at the same time. It’s like God knew the medicine for me to recover. While BS irritated me with his nonsense, GL distracted me with her psycho cousin and NL made me laugh with her rubbish about the psycho cousin. I stayed online with them till 1+am. Wish I could stay longer.

I woke up this morning feeling slightly better.

My friends. They are the best. Best Friends Forever! Haha…

Today is the 4th day since KL left for Vegas. I’m not managing well. Feeling sickly, depressed and lonely.

It all started on Wednesday night during Pilates. Knowing that KL is flying the next day, I didn’t concentrate during class and nearly fell off my reformer machine. That night I didn’t sleep well.

Waking up on Thursday morning feeling all crappy. Contemplated if I should go to work or get a sickie, but since I was awake to see KL off, I might as well go to work. I regretted that decision. Before noon, I had bad cramps and was under high stress to finish work. To make matters worse, I didn’t have breakfast that day except a Black Tea and had my lunch at 3pm. That day, I didn’t go for Yoga. I came home, made some porridge and slept at 1.30am waiting for KL to call.

Friday morning I woke up with a puffy eyes and horrible dark eye rings. Psoriasis was equally bad that day. I was hideous. Had a bad headache that the painkillers didn’t work. Couldn’t concentrate during work and kept doing nonsensical stuff like googling Vegas and looking at Vegas time. I went Pilates that night with a headache but luckily didn’t fall off the machine. Co and I shopped a little and I drove myself home. I sent the rest of Friday night watching a new Korean Drama with a headache. That night, I slept at 3am waiting for KL’s call.

Woke up on Saturday with a massive headache but still went Chaddy with Co. My headache was so bad, I didn’t eat much for lunch and even the potent painkiller didn’t work. But I had a blast shopping. Co kept me company the whole day even though I was thinking of KL the whole time. After sending Co home, I had my first booze bust. Then I had my first parellel parking alone. I watched about 6 disc of the korean drama and cried myself to sleep at 5.30am.

This morning, KL called and I cried myself silly. I think I’m not managing well. Never thought it would be that bad. It really feels like when he went army, and I didnt get to see him for 2 weeks with only one phone call a day.

I’m feeling really demotivated and depressed. I miss KL very much and I really wish he would come home soon. I really hate the feeling of missing him. I thought I should be used to it. Strangely, the last 4 days, it suddenly stir up all those sad sad feelings. Why am I being torture all the time? Why can’t we be together forever?

KL has gone to Vegas for work this morning. I miss him so badly.

Weeks ago, I was planning all the things I’m going to do while he is gone.

Sitting at my computer now, all I want to do is continue sitting here waiting. Not sure wait for what but it does feel like it’s been a long day and I’m just waiting for him to come back, eat dinner, shower and then sleep.

I miss you babe. Come home soon. Next time you have to travel for work, I’m packing my bags and coming along.

Been shopping around with KL for a new mobile phone because his mobile is falling apart, exactly after 2 years.

I found a new love. The Nokia E65. Been thinking about it for days, but I think, my current mobile phone is still working so maybe not.

Its quite rare that I ‘gian’ a mobile phone. Later part of the year, see how.

I dreamt of cookie this morning. I left cookie with a friend and I forgot to bring her home. Cookie came into my dream to tell me that she misses me and really want to come home. I woke up in my dream crying because how can I forgot to bring her home? I asked my parents didn’t they realised that cookie is missing? They said they got used to it already. I didn’t quite understand.

I rushed to my friend’s place (don’t know who) and cookie was sitting at the door. sweeping the floor with her tail and I hugged her so hard I didn’t want to let go.

I don’t remember much of the dream except that I was patting and stroking cookie a lot. I remember her telling me that she wants to go home.

It’s Ching Ming period now, wonder if that means anything. I miss my little companion of 15 years.

We got tickets for Puppet Up today for the comedy fest. Its really funny, I seldom see KL laughing so hard.

Jim Henson’s puppets are the best.

*these 3 aliens are my favourite

Lost the blog was a little scary because our payment was done by our Credit Card and we got a new card lately and forgotten to update it.

I’ll be busy the next few days because Edwin is here to visit us.

I got a relaxing pedicure today alone at Dashing Divas. I felt so pampered. Forgot to take bring my camera but I will definately go back again, once I saved enough for it. I wanna go with CT or GL.

Then we went Chaddy and I spent $169 on a top and skirt.

This cute high-waisted skirt has pockets. Pockets are fashionable this season. Plus this hides my bloated tummy. Its perfect for work too.

The top a little see-thru and material kind of scratchy but I don’t itch so I guess its okay. Great for work too with a black pants.

Then we went to this Korean BBQ place with the CTs. Not bad and pretty cheap too. Too busy eating to take any pictures. After that we went to watch Mr Bean’s Holiday.

I was the only insane one laughing so loudly that KL had to cover my mouth.

I’m chatting with my insane cousin while doing my weights. I miss my yoga/pilates!