Bad work week
Been having bad time at work lately and I have been seriously thinking of taking a whole year off to be with Baby. Before Baby, we were already one man down and I was doing two person’s work. It has since gotten worse.
I not only have to do 2 person’s work, I also have to be “office manager” and “baby sitter”.
Last Friday, Boss flew off for a meeting in another state and I was second in command. I had to attend meetings on his behalf, handle his clients and keep the kids entertained. That is on top of my usual work. He came back on Monday and I gave him a low-down on the meetings and complaint about a particular meeting I co-chaired with another department. The SM in that department was in the meeting with me and I was getting frustrated because she was talking non-stop and even answered on my behalf the questions that client asked me. So many times I had to be abruptly interrupt her and gave my professional opinion on the matter. I told boss that she didn’t need me anyway since she can answer all questions relating to our work. Of course, it was illegal to give advice because she is not qualified. Guess what? That afternoon, she called my Boss and complaint about me. About how I wasn’t helpful in the meeting and kept very quiet. Luckily, my boss told her off. He told her that that wasn’t what he was told. He also warned her that she shouldn’t be giving such advice relating to our work to client. HAH! Goodness, if I haven’t told my boss about her in the morning, he might be thinking I am only giving excuses. But still, boss agrees she tends to be a chatterbox and know-it-all during meetings.
The whole week at work have been really stressful with the workload. Today, I snapped at boss. It all started in the morning when the kids screwed up the system and was all stressed out. Boss wasn’t around in the morning and I had to deal with it and do damage control while trying to calm the kids down. Then before lunch, boss returned and I told him what had happened and he flipped. He was swearing and jumping around fuming mad even after I told him I had a temporary solution to tie us over until the system is up and running again. I remained calm thru-out. But he made me more stressed. I took an extended lunch break and when I came back… I lost it.
Boss wasn’t helpful when he handled me his work causing clients to be pissed off at me. I asked him for more details only to be more frustrated with him. He continued to hand me more work and I completely lost it. I slam my file shut and he said, “You looked crossed.” And I yelled, “I AM!” Got out of my seat and walked to the photocopy machine. I noticed there was a lot of people looking my direction. I hear my admin lady (sitting beside me) telling boss that I have been very stressed especially today and to “lay off”. While trying to contain my rage, he came to the copy room and tried to make peace. I really don’t want to see his face but didn’t want to cause a commotion. I said, “Don’t worry. I’ll deal with it.” Guess what? He had the cheeks to say that all of us are stressed and blah blah blah… I lost it again and yelled, “ARGH! OKAY! I SAID I’LL DEAL WITH IT.” He walked out and the kids in the room was looking rather concerned and even offered to let me cut the queue. One of the girls asked if I was alright and I smiled.
Walking back to my desk, one of the kids came to offer help. I guess she heard me. But there is little the kids can do for me. In the next half hour or so, Boss kept coming to me and tried to make peace. He really don’t understand that I really don’t want to see his face as it will make my blood boil. I told Co later in the evening about it and she reckons that at home, he has to grovel and beg for forgiveness from his wife. For me, you have to leave me alone to cool off.
I left work early today and went for my prenatal yoga. I am actually more relax at class and realised that I rather spend time with Baby. I have decided that I am going to write a brilliant appraisal for myself and ask for a pay raise in July even though after that I would be going on Maternity Leave. I am going to tell Boss that if the money is not satisfactory, I might consider returning after my maternity leave and even seek my worth elsewhere.
So, as of today, I am looking forward to my maternity leave. Maybe I should be looking forward to my holiday in SunnyLand at the end of the month first. Whatever it is, I am looking forward to be NOT at work. See if he die without me. See if he can do and extra 3 person’s work. GOOD LUCK!